Creativity is a drug I cannot live without.
Cecil B. DeMille
The story of Surrender...
I was listening to the backdrop of conversations from a TV show a friend was watching, scrolling through Facebook posts and doing my usual end of evening tasks. Brushing my teeth, washing my face and preparing for the next day. I was thinking about my life and where it is, as if it had somewhere to be. Some destination to arrive at. I am learning this is not the case. When your life is not doing what you think it should be...surrender.
Surrender to not knowing the next moment, the future, or the next move. I truly believed that I was living life freely. That I was "going with the flow." I was doing no such thing. I was securing my safety nets, and I was taking calculated risks. I was playing it safe.
Very recently, I demoted myself at my day job, left a roommate to find my own sacred space. And in all of that, dealing with some heavy duty unforeseen personal taxes and building my business. I was lost, so lost – so scared –living between homes, not knowing what was next. Where was I? Where did I put myself? What was I doing? Did I take too many risks? How many risks does a risk taker risk?
As my head hit the pillow and I started to think about what dreams I may have the honour of escaping into, I had a vision. He was a man – living in a big city, well dressed and well to do; he has a stream of delicious dreams. He thinks. A lot. He thinks about God, about love, and what is missing in his life.
Is it love?Is it God?Is it truth?Is it a woman?Is it a man? Is it himself?
He is alone...but not by choice. He is alone, because, well, he dreams. He dreams so much that he could get lost in a phrase, a thought, or a dream.
After a day of dreaming, he surrenders to the night, travels the city and dances in the streets. He surrenders himself to the quiet, the alone, and the unknown.
This is a story about "having it all in life". Having everything you have ever dreamed of and still feeling empty.
Yearning and dreaming forever to fill this cup with just about anything – Anything! – only to discover that what you truly desire to put in your cup are the things you have been ignoring.
It was a balmy Sunday morning. Sleeping in was a bad idea that day. The house was empty, I was left with all the air to myself. I love that feeling, when you wake up and you just know you are the only one home. The sound of empty.
As I lay in bed catching up on all the articles I saved that week, I scrolled to my hearts content as the sun laid her rays all over the bed - I thought to myself - I could not possibly be the only one who feels this deeply, the walls of her home. They speak all the time, the edge of the first step on the stair case, that spot in the living room you love to stand in and watch - what do we watch?
I was looking for a home to photograph for my Real Estate portfolio, so I posted on facebook, looking for that special home. When I found it, the intention was to capture images for a mock sell sheet I was going to send to Agents all across Toronto. I found the home, or rather, the home found me.
J picked me up from my place and as we drove in the bright Sunday sun, our romanticism of homes met over a timmies coffee. So many ideas were being birthed before we even reached her home.
We swooned over all the joys of life that we just don't talk about, day to day. We want more conversations that sound like this..."omg I had the most delicious bath with the sun on my bed".
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2016 has been a year filled with joy, challenges, and growth. As I reflect on all these experiences, I am grateful for the continuous support and love, the friends whom I consider family and the amazing clients I have come to know--who trusted in my expertise.
What is one lesson I learned in 2016 that I will carry with me into 2017? -- That my passion comes first before all else. I put it to the side a little bit last year, and focused on what others wanted to see in my work - guess how that left me feeling? - unfulfilled.
Let's welcome this new year together, and be prosperous together. Here's a glimpse of my 2016 in images. I am ecstatic about the slideshow at the end of this year.
Love you all!